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Going On A Journey
Here it is late in the a.m. & I’m still up online checking out everything on natural hair. I’ve already whacked off 1 side of my hair & I’m now strongly thinking about cutting it all way down to transition into natural hair. I want something new, different, exciting & HEALTHY & not just with my hair, but with my body also. My man asked, me why do you now want to start experimenting with your hair now that we are together. Well, it has nothing to do with us or him, it’s just he direction that I’m feeling so strongly in my spirit to go in. It’s a big step to take, I know. I tried several mos. ago to transition into natural hair & I caved after a few mos. So why try it again? Well, for 1 I’m tired of the major shedding of my hair & I’m tired of my hair being like a yo-yo. One min. it’s good & the next min. it’s acting up. I want strong healthy hair that’s consistent. Now, in order for me to have healthy hair I must start becoming more health conscious with my body. Not maintaining a healthy lifestyle can have an effect on your hair. I need to cut out all the sugary drinks & definitely start drinking my rightful amounts of water each day for it is essential. I also need to cut out all the junk foods (which will def be HARD) & start eating more healthy.
I definitely have to focus on this body of mine before it gets anymore out of control. There’s a fitness ctr. where my baby lives that I can go to FREE & there’s always walking that is definitely FREE. So there really are NO excuses to when it comes to exercising.
Procrastination & Laziness MUST leave!!!
So to sum all this up, I want to take this journey to prove to myself that I can see things through, that I do have self control & that I can be disciplined. I’m tired of admiring everyone else, it’s time for me to start looking in the mirror & truly being happy with myself. So who or what is this all about? No one & anything, but ME, it’s ALL about ME!!! I’m smiling so on the inside that I can’t help, but to sit at this computer & start smiling on the outside for I’m excited about the days, wks., & mos. to come.
Today is June 26, 2011. My last relaxer was June 02, 2011.
Through this journey I will be blogging on the regular. So, keep a girl lifted up in prayer that I stay strong & focused. I’m EXCITED & I hope whoever reads this will be excited for me also.
Let The Journey Begin!
Darling Roy
You love me sooo, wow. It blew my mind the day you told me to stop holding back, because there was nothing about me that would turn you away & that I was who you had been believing God for. Darling every time you look into my eyes & tell me how much you love me & that you not only want me in your life, but that you need me, it touches a place within me that has never been touched by no man. You’re constantly showing me & telling me how much I mean to you, that means a lot. In past relations I had to ask or wonder, but with you it’s so obvious. The night I shared with you about my hang-ups, my insecurities about my flaws it was very emotional for me, because even though in past relations I wanted to share that part of me, I just knew that I couldn’t, but because you’re such a meek & humbled man, I finally knew that I was safe. And when you responded with, and so, I still love you & I’m staying put, I’m not going anywhere, well, that was exactly the response that I was hoping for.
For the first time in a relationship I am truly free to be myself. When you said, God had brought us together, I didn’t have much faith in that, because of past relations, but of course I’m now in agreement with you. At one time I was so caught up with what I wanted I lowered my standards & went against my better judgements & that caused me to make a lot of poor decisions regarding men & because of all those things I couldn’t believe that God would bless me with such a man, but He has. You hear my heart & I love you for that.
You are my Darling Roy & I am yours!!! If we continue to keep God first & trust & love one another & keep a strong open line of communication flowing like we have then we should be fine. Lord, I thank you for bringing a GOOD man into my life & for seeing a what a good man looks like up-close & personal. Like I’ve shared with Roy that if for some crazy reason we should not last, trust me I will NOT go back to that old type of man, because the bar has been raised. Once you experience the effects of a good man or anything for that matter there is no way you can go back to settling.
And not that it’s all about me, because I am freely allowing God to shape & mold me just for him!!! Yes, days are coming & I am excitedly anticipating them!!!
